God has become such a loaded term. For some, it invokes the vision of some bearded entity in the sky and for others, it may represent everything that is wrong with the world. God has been used as an excuse for war and the oppression of people for centuries, and this may be a major contributing factor to why many people who embark upon a spiritual quest tend to reject religion and traditional views, including the term God. God as an excuse for war is the same thing as using love as an excuse for abuse. It makes no sense, but somehow humanity has consistently created these nonsensical loops. God can even be a triggering word for some and for others, their personal definition invokes such limited understanding that it barely resonates with the vibration of what God is.
Before I go any further, however, I must say that even my definition will be insufficient, as this concept is simply too big for our humanness, too big for language, and too big for concepts. God is undefinable and so any attempt of definition is futile, yet it is still useful to attempt it, as long as we remember that it will always be incomplete.
Let us begin with what God is not. God is not a separate being. God is not envious or jealous. God is not above us nor apart from us. God is not ruling over us like some king in the sky. God is not any of the words that attempt to describe God.
Now let us strive to use words as signposts, pointing to that indescribable-undefinable, that can really only be felt. God is the energy of all that is. That means that we are a part of that energy of God. We could just as easily say God is the entire universe. God is the energy and life force behind all things and so in the scientific sense, God is simply energy. Does this debase the idea of God - I think not, energy is absolutely phenomenal. God is genderless and can just as easily be called Goddess. God is pure Love. God is the source of all. God is creative energy.
God does not mind what we call them. Some have thrown away the word God and have replaced it with the word Universe. It is the same thing. It just sounds different. Personally, I use the term Divine Source instead of God, and I only do so because of all the strange ideas people have around the word God. An atheist may say they do not believe in God, but in my opinion, if they believe in energy and even just the slightest bit of metaphysics (I mean who can deny the existence of dreams?), then they believe in God, they just use a different word, and that is perfectly acceptable.
God does not punish and persecute. We do that to ourselves. Hell only exists because we created it, and since we are also a part of God, a part of God did create it, but not in a way that renders us powerless. Do you get the nuance here? We each create our own punishments, karmas, and hells. They are real experiences, but they need not be. This self-punishment can happen in this lifetime, in the afterlife of the next life.
I remember reading the words of Eckhart Tolle (1997) in the book The Power of Now in my teen years, and the teachings were so much aligned with the beings of my visions I knew them to be true. Tolle (1997) describes the energy of the universe as having one of two base vibrations: love or fear. Everything can either be boiled down to one or the other. There are, of course, nuances and variations of the shades of fear and love, allowing for a vast spectrum to form. Tolle (1997) uses the metaphor of a number line; fear is the negative side of the number line and love is the positive. With this illustration, we can realize that while the experience of fear is real, fear itself is just an absence of love. We know that if we have minus two sheep, the sheep don’t actually exist - it is simply a concept of a lack of something. Only love is real.
The Blue Team tells me that we choose the circumstances in which we are born and the difficulties we will face for our soul mission. It may seem difficult to imagine why we would create negative experiences for ourselves to move through. Why are innocent children born into toxic environments? Why do people suffer at the hands of others? Is it so crazy to imagine that we designed these experiences for ourselves in order to overcome them? For the growth that results from them? For the expansion of our compassion? So that we can choose the light and help others through the example we set? To discover the depth of our inner strength? What else is there for us to do really?
While I would never wish any of the challenges that I have moved through upon another, I also know that it is the medicine of those experiences that have allowed me to access my power. In each moment where I wanted to give up, I had to find the strength to search for love in the cracks where so much suffering existed. For every harsh word that was directed at me, I had to choose to believe that I was worthy. I now know what I can overcome and I know that others can too, and that allows me to become a beacon for others. Had I not moved through those traumas I would not have this medicine to offer the collective.
Much of our suffering is in our thoughts around our life, as opposed to what is actually happening. Much of this is embedded in the fear of death and annihilation. If we can resolve the fear we have of dying, so much of our worry in life fades away. The Blue Team has taught me much about the afterlife. The first time I encountered death I was about 6 years old when my paternal grandfather transitioned. It was the first time I ever saw my father cry; it was a disturbing sight.
“What is wrong?” I had asked. And the answer that came was far from satisfying: “Your Oupa (Afrikaans for grandfather) is dead, he is gone and he is never coming back.” This didn't make any sense to me. How could someone leave and never come back, how is that possible?
I went to my room and sat on my bed. An angel sat beside me and sighed, “my child” she said, “they know not what they speak of - they do not understand what a glorious joy it is to die”. She went on to explain to me that death was not the end and not a state of gone but rather a change of form, from physical existence into pure spirit form - a state where there are no limitations - a state of going home and being one with God.
My next revelation about death came when I was 16. I had been looking into different religions and reading many texts about alternate belief systems when something dawned on me - spirit communicated with me differently at this time so that I could naturalize in social environments without acting crazy, revelations at this time came in the form of downloads where suddenly, I would just simply know something without a shadow of a doubt. Our belief systems affect our experiences even after we die.
If a person believes in Jesus and God in the Christian sense, and they indeed live a good life according to that belief system, then they are often met by Jesus and are taken to a realm that represents their idea of heaven. If a person believes that they are from a different star system (Starseed) then they are collected by the beings that they call family and they go home. If a person believes in nothing, they are pleasantly surprised to find there is something and they are then often greeted by their loved ones.
If we feel guilty about our lives and believe in the necessity of punishment, then a form of purgatory or hell is created. I have on a personal level witnessed family members passing and punishing themselves and then releasing themselves from those spaces and becoming guiding spirits. In the vastness of this multi-dimensional universe, everything is possible and therefore is. So what we choose to believe and how we choose to act and what energy we put out affects us not only in this life but also in the afterlife and if we so choose our next life too.
So much of our power lies in the choice we have around our belief systems. We get to be the creators of our realms. Nothing is inevitable (except that we are). No belief system is invalid. The inquiry should center around: does it serve you? Does it light you up? Does it resonate? Does it feel good? Indeed, if you allow yourself for just a moment to accept that everything is possible… which possibility do you wish to align with? What would you change today?
Lots of love to you, divine soul
Tolle, E., 1997. The Power of Now. Vancouver: Namaste Publishing.