This last week I tried something new. It was scary and intimidating. It was also exciting and expansive. I did a group mediumship session. And while I have always had the gift of communication with crossed-over souls. I always tended to block them out. They were confusing. They were confused. They are human energies after all. And many of them have had traumatic experiences and/or have unfinished business. the beings of light, on the other hand, are calming and assuring. So naturally, as a traumatized child, I focused my cultivation on that communication that felt safe and supportive. In dealing with my life circumstances, this communication was far more useful. And as I learned and grew from this communication, I was able to extend this blessing to others.
This year, however, I realized that there is a lot of healing for people in the communication of crossed-over loved ones. They get to hear the things they need to hear - the “sorry” and “thank-you” and also the “I am at peace”. Another important thing is the permission slip to move on and live a happy life, having made peace with the past. It provides closure. It Allows space for guilt to be released and stories to be heard. This is powerful.
So I began to explore the possibility of opening this gift back up and learning how to navigate this new frequency. I set the intentions and did some research and a few impromptu readings for people when it came up in conversation. What are the questions I ask? How do I receive the information? How do I take it deeper and further? How do I make it useful and healing for the person receiving the messages? Where are my borders and boundaries within that? I am still navigating these questions since I simply don't have enough experience yet to know the best solutions, but just like with channeling the Blue Team, with practice I will get better.
I never expected how intense it would feel to invite these spirits in and allow their experiences to move through my body. I was not prepared for how incredibly emotional the contact would be. My heart was throbbing with a myriad of emotions, my body in a full sweat as I received all of the unexpressed emotions and unsaid words. As a first experience, it was overwhelming though I am sure that it will get easier.
After the session, I asked my dreams to help me to activate this gift further. Many of you may know that I am an active dream worker. It is such a powerful space and when I ask my dreams for something, they never let me down. Rather they astonish me every time. I spent my whole night communicating with spirit in new ways and learning from mediumship masters. I am sure it will take some time to integrate this into my waking life, but it is there already.
The next night I asked my dreams to help me work on my confidence. I had meant this in terms of believing in myself and stepping forward fearlessly. It manifested in a surprising way. There were galeforce winds that night. Normally I sleep through this but something woke me up at 2 am (just in time for the witching hour) and I felt deep anxiety in the pit of my stomach. I tossed and turned feeling it would be impossible to fall back asleep. I sat up and a ghostly spirit walked across my room. I realized it was the mediumship opening that had caused spirits to feel they could interrupt my sleep. It is so important to set boundaries even with spirit. I am happy to do the work in dreamland most nights. But some nights I ask for deep nourishing rest instead. I am not okay with spirits waking me from my sleep at night unless my house is on fire and I am in danger or something. I didn't tap in. I went instead to work a little on my preparation for the next day, which was fully booked, until the anxiety dissolved and I felt tired enough to go back to sleep. I only realized later that I was given a scary and challenging experience to build up my confidence. I know many people may be frightened at the sight of a spirit moving across the room in front of the bed, but for me, it was the sudden waking and the sound of the wind that was truly unsettling. The spirit made me roll my eyes in annoyance.
It's so important to be strongly embedded in a belief system that serves you. I know that spirit cannot do anything to harm me because those are the parameters that I have set. I am so strong in my belief I simply cannot match up with anything that can harm me. I realize that I got exactly what I asked for. I was given an opportunity to build my confidence and dissolve anxiety. I also had to build my confidence the entire day afterward in believing I could achieve everything I had committed to in such a tired state. Sleep is so important to me.
I am so excited about where this new opening leads. I am so grateful to be on this path and following this calling. It is a deeply profound honor to be of service and to commune with spirit every day. Thank you for being part of it.
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With love overflowing